Monday, January 30, 2017

bukan insomnia.

Monday, January 30, 2017
jam tiga pagi.
dan belum memejam.
bukan,
kali ini bukan karena kafeinbukan kopi, teh, apalagi cokelat. bukan juga sedang lembur belajar ujian. bukan juga panik menunggu hasil ujian. bukan karena sedang maraton film tahun sembilan puluhan, apalagi maraton drama korea. bukan karena sedang sedih, apalagi sedang banyak pikiran. bukan. bukan juga karena sedang tahajud selagi menunggu sahur. bukan juga karena lagi menguntit media sosial mantan-mantan gebetan, oh, apalagi karena sedang jatuh cinta. bukan.
karena apa.

Saturday, January 28, 2017

Saturday, January 28, 2017
...
we were on the phone last night,
twenty-three minutes long,
do you remember?
i don't recall embracing the rhyme
our voices made,
but,
until we were laughing; 
echoed like we were in love.

and,
from that moment,
i want you to devour me,
a whole of me.
and i wouldn't mind
the riot i was thinking, late
in the last few days.

Friday, January 20, 2017

perihal kesalahan.

Friday, January 20, 2017
"bagaimana kalau bahagiaku itu kamu?"
"jangan. nanti sungsang, kamu akan susah. aku akan resah."
"sebab apa? aku bisa tak harus terang-terangan."
lalu jawabmu, "itu sebabnya."

Monday, January 16, 2017

Monday, January 16, 2017
oh no, it feels weird to be hand-wrapped by someone who is not; you.
oh fuck,
it was traumatic.